Thursday, August 11, 2016

Fitness Goals Revisited

I mentioned at the beginning of the summer how I was trying to lose some of the extra weight that I had put on over the course of the school year, so I figured now that summer was coming to a close (boo!) it was time to revisit those goals and see how far I've come (if at all).

I have never been considered "big" by my peers, in fact, when I told people that I was trying to lose weight the reaction was always the same - "Lose weight from where?" or "Why?" or they would just look at me like I was crazy. But the truth is, I was so severely uncomfortable in my own skin that I decided to do something to change it. I decided to start working out and dieting like I never had before because, at the end of the day, people can tell me how skinny I am all they want, but I had to actually believe it.

At the recommendation of my friend Kelsey, I began to do the Kayla Itsines Bikini Body Guide. Unfortunately, though, I don't have a treadmill to do the cardio sessions on and it's too hot and humid to go outside most days in South Carolina, so I think this really hurt my attempts at the 12 week long program. I have noticed a change in my physical appearance, though after looking online at other "transformations," mine is definitely not as dramatic as it should be by week 11. Now that I have an actual apartment with a gym, and classes are about to resume and the campus gym will be accessible, I will have no excuse not to do both the workout circuits and the 45 minutes of cardio.


Now onto the diet... I have been trying to eat about 1,250 calories a day (though recently it's been more like 1,440... I'm living out of my car, I don't have a refrigerator to keep veggies in!). This is a pretty extreme diet, but I can't stand dieting so I wanted to get it over as quickly as I possibly could. But this also means that I go over my calorie "limit" pretty regularly. When I decided to go on such a strict diet, I promised myself that I would never let it interfere with friends or family - meaning that I could never use it as an excuse not to meet someone for a bite to eat, or to say no to getting ice cream with my mom and dad, etc.

I noticed that my diet really started to fluctuate when I got my new job. On my first day, everyone told me that I was going to gain weight working here. Dinner (and snacks) are provided for me when I'm, and most of the time it's from restaurants or is some form of frozen (delicious) lasagna. Not to mention that local bakeries (including Panera...) send us leftover bread, bagels, and pastries. I do not have the will power to say no! Plus, most of the time I'm sitting around and not doing much so snacking is my activity of choice. I'm going to try and get back into knitting in the next few weeks so I can use my hands for something other than eating. I'm hoping that once things settle down I will be able to control myself more around the goodies, and if not, I will be able to at least go to the gym before going to bed.


All in all, I'm not really where I wanted to be, but I don't feel like I'm back where I started. I definitely feel more confident in my own skin, and I have been able to lose some weight (as of July 4th I was down 5 pounds but it feels like it's back up) without having to go cold turkey on the things that I love - pizza, tacos, and desserts.

One night, as I was eating my 400-calorie-or-less-dinner, my roommate asked me something that I've thought about a lot since. She saw what I was eating (which was a decent amount of food if we're being honest here) and asked, "Are you happy?" I feel certain that after she watched me carefully measure serving sizes of fruits and vegetables, and spoon out only half of the pot of ramen noodles (true story) she was genuinely checking up on me, but to answer her question: yes, I am happy. I have worked hard, and I have seen the rewards. I have given up, and I have seen the consequences. But one thing remains clear: I am in charge. I control how I feel everyday, which is something I really couldn't say before. I finally feel confident when I put on a swimsuit, regardless of what people said about my body type before. I feel lighter and healthier.

I cannot wait to continue on this path to be a better, healthier version of myself and I can't wait to keep updating you all as I go along!

17 comments :

  1. Great reflection! Like everything in life it's often about the journey and not the destination, although the destination is motivation to continue the journey.

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  2. Good for you for working towards a body that makes you happy regardless of whether or not others think you need to lose weight or not.

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  3. I agree and think it's most important about how you feel in your own body. It doesn't matter what everyone else says because if you're not happy, you can't feel good. I can't wait to follow along with the rest of your journey.

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  4. Starting a new job can be so tough on health (I feel like all places say that about the snacks). You are looking and sounding great!

    xo,
    Sara Kate Styling

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  5. I love this post! It's most important to feel happy and confident with yourself wherever you're at. It will make your journey last and worthwhile

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  6. Resisting temptations are really the hardest part of dieting/losing weight. Thanks so much for sharing this. I can't wait to see more of your journey!

    Xoxo,
    Amanda
    trulyyoursa.com

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  7. Such a great post, I love working out and staying in shape. Bring confident in yourself will make you journey so much better!!

    http://xoxobella.com

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  8. Love this post, working out is always been a struggle for me! You go girl!

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  9. You go, girl! Every calorie limit stuck to, every workout, no matter how big or how small, is a step in the right direction - just keep pushing!
    I too am on my way to a fetter and healthier self. Good luck!

    Christie's Take on Life. xx

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  10. There is so much that exercise brings to life - confidence and health to name two! You are well ahead of the curve!

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  11. Good luck in your health and wellness path! Thanks for sharing them wth us.

    Greta | www.gretahollar.com

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  12. Good on you for getting so far with Kayla, her workouts do not work for my body, I suffer from some knee problems and all the step ups just kill my knee so fast! But you look great! !

    http://styledbys.ca

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  13. Your looking great! I need to be more strict about my diet.

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  14. I also yo-yo with my body weight (I gained 5 pounds this summer after losing 20 over the last year) and have really come to not beat myself up about it. Like you alluded it, it's about making smarter choices overall, but still eating all foods in moderation. Don't give up, you'll get where you want to be!

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  15. Love this reflection! I could definitely relate. I am the worst at dieting, and I try to get it over with too. I'm trying to get into the mindset of making smaller changes everyday regarding my health that I can keep up with, rather than suddenly trying to completely overhaul my diet.

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  16. I gained a decent amount of weight when I started my first job because there was ALWAYS leftover catering. Great for my wallet, bad for my waistline! My current goal is just to eat what makes me happy in moderation and to try to be active every day, even if it's just a mile walk with my dog.

    XO, SS || Seersucker Sass

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  17. Girl you're looking SO good!!!! You should be proud of yourself, even if the results aren't quite what you had originally wanted.
    XO Amanda | www.glitterandspice.com

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